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Two Years

Friday, June 12, 2015

Shortly after waking this morning, a song Billy and I used to sing (but no one sings it like our friends, Henry & Hazel Slaughter) came to mind. "We've Come This Far By Faith." 

I fixed a cup of coffee, grabbed my Bible and devotional when I realized 2 years ago today Billy was diagnosed with Lewey Body Dementia. Many of you have traveled this journey with us and I could never thank you enough for all your prayers, financial support, emails, phone calls and cards of encouragement for our family. You've carried me through some dark and difficult days. YES, we've come this far by faith!

In the past two years I've seen Billy's countenance change from fear, frustration and irritation to one that is calm, comfortable and peaceful. God answered my prayer for Billy's speech that never got corrupt or dis honoring. He has reconfirmed to me that He makes His presence known to Billy for He said, "I'll never leave you nor forsake you." He said NEVER....no conditions attached...that works for me!!

For those of you who will continue the journey with us, our family is forever grateful!

"YES, I remember all the good things God has done, things that seemed impossible, I'll praise Him for the victories He has won."

Under His wings
Paula


May Update

Sunday, May 10, 2015
Dear Family, Friends, and Faithful Prayer Warriors:

THANK YOU for staying on this journey with us and sustaining us spiritually, emotionally and financially.

I Thessalonians 5:18 "Thank God in EVERYTHING, no matter what the circumstances may be, for this is the will of God for you who are in Christ Jesus."

I apologize for the lack of updates but our lives seem to remain the same. Some days that is positive and other days, I think of it as negative. With that being said, the verse above commands me to thank God in ALL things, and that is my desire. Not only thank Him but be content in doing so.

While I would love to see God heal Billy, my ways are not HIS ways, and He knows best...He always has a plan with a purpose and it's ALWAYS good. (Jeremiah 29:11) I am reminded of this daily when praying for someone very special. God's delays in answering our prayers are part of His goodness...even when I don't understand. His timing is ALWAYS perfect!!

There are many days I sit with Billy, hold his hands and just cry....not knowing how to pray and that's when so many of you have taken us to the throne of grace....THANK YOU!!!

I was blessed to have my brother and his wife here for a few days over Easter. I never refuse a chance to be spoiled.

I am grateful for BJ's visits and rearranging his schedule to make time for me and his dad in the midst of his busy schedule.

He also located some kids that we Youth Pastored (1979) and was able to have them contact me. I was so blessed to hear from them after all these years.
 
At one of the Dartt's concerts recently, BJ met a lady who housed Billy when he travelled and sang with Life Action in 1972. I have never met her but had the privilege of talking with her on the phone one evening and my heart rejoiced as she shared her love for Billy and the impact he had on her family.

I thank the Lord for His daily blessings He continues to bring on my journey. I do not want to miss out on the present worrying about my future.

While I continue trusting the Lord, through you, to meet my daily financial needs, I would appreciate your prayers regarding my difficulty sleeping. This has certainly increased my prayer time for others, which I am honored to do, but I also need my rest to function and fulfill my responsibilities.

We are blessed to belong to a family that bears one another's burdens...TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!

Under His Wings,
Paula
Psalm 91:4

THANK YOU for taking the time to read this LONG letter!!!

Paula's Christmas Update

Friday, December 12, 2014
To All Our Family, Friends, and Faithful Prayer Warriors,

I am starting this letter the same way I started my day...."When upon life's billows you are tempest-tossed, when you are discouraged, thinking all is lost, count your many blessings, name them one by one, and it will surprise you what the Lord hath done". 2014 has been a difficult year for our family but we have received many blessings along the way, and I THANK YOU for having a part! Your prayers, love gifts, phone calls, cards and emails have encouraged and sustained me. God's perfect timing has made itself known over and over again. Although it gets scary at times, I am grateful for HIS provision and cling to HIS precious promises!! 

Hospice thought we were losing Billy this past March and had me make burial plans. I was concerned BJ wouldn't get home in time...but he did...and nine months later, Billy is still with us. Outside a few lucid moments, he doesn't recognize us, but he is comfortable, less irritated, eats with assistance, and sits up occasionally.

I have been encouraged with visits from family and friends at just the right time. God has made it possible for me to visit Billy almost everyday, except for a few breaks that I have been advised to take in order to be refreshed. This letter has been the most difficult for me to write because my heart is very heavy. At this present time, I have so many hurting friends and loved ones who are facing uncertain circumstances which will affect their Christmas. Yes, they know the Lord, and yes, they know God is Sovereign, but in their humanness, there is sorrow. I trust we will stop in the midst of our busyness to count our many blessings and pray for those who are experiencing a difficult time. 

As we celebrate the Reason for the Season, I would like to say THANK YOU again!!

From our home to yours, Merry Christmas and a Blessed 2015!

Paula Speer (Billy)


September 2014

Sunday, September 14, 2014
Dear Faithful Friends and Prayer Partners:


THANK YOU...THANK YOU...THANK YOU for supporting our family with your prayers
and love gifts...you have no idea how you encourage me on a daily basis!!


Proverbs 3:5&6 Trust in The Lord with all thine heart and LEAN NOT to thine own
understanding: In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and HE shall direct thy paths". As a
child, this was one of my earliest memory verses, and now I see how easy it is to SEARCH for understanding instead of SEEKING and TRUSTING the ONE who has it all under control. Easy to say, hard to practice!!!


Billy seems to remain the same....appears comfortable...talks (mumbles) not making sense, eats but continues to lose weight, sits up occasionally, doesn't know us.... Hospice checks on him twice a week. Please keep praying for him. 


I was blessed to join BJ, Stoney Dartt, and Amanda Henry (great singer and lots of fun) on their tour in the Northeast and gave a family update to folks who have been a part of our lives for many years. I was refreshed under the Ministry of Wendell & Joan Calder at Living Waters Bible Conference, where I have more memories then I can count! I saw my brother and his wife, visited my homestead, talked with a lot of friends and family which included a Sunday School teacher I had growing up but now in the Nursing Home, got to see my Aunt (one of the two I have left) in a Rehab Center, enjoyed the BEST fried haddock, lobster, and the list goes on and on! It was a very emotional trip as I laughed and cried a lot but I had a great time and thankful to those who made it possible. 


I would appreciate your prayers for Billy to be comforted by God's presence as he lives in his own world. Only God knows what he is capable of understanding....For BJ and Stoney as they minister as a Duet while Tracy Dartt recovers from surgery and continues his therapy, and Sharon by his side. 
Traveling the past couple weeks reminded me of "life on the road" with lots of unpleasant surprises and unknowns. 


Please pray good health for all of us to keep pressing on as we trust The Lord for direction to take the next step on our journey. 


Our monthly support has taken a significant drop but challenges us to trust The Lord for others to stand in the gap. Our hearts are heavy for many going through difficult times but we rejoice as we trust the ONE who makes NO mistakes!!


Thank you again and again!!

Under His Wings
Paula (Billy & BJ)

Lifetime Achievement

Wednesday, June 11, 2014
To all my Faithful Friends and Prayer Warriors


THANK YOU for your continued prayers, even when I am slow keeping you updated.
Please be assured there's not a day goes by I am not thinking about you and praying
for you...I have never felt the power of prayer so strong upon my life and that strengthens me daily. THANK YOU AGAIN!!


I am happy to report Billy's pressure sore has healed enough to make it possible for him to sit up a couple times a week, but still becomes agitated at times. (I have to admit I get that way myself !) His weight is checked monthly, and although he eats fairly well, he continues to lose weight which goes along with the disease. My time with him consist of listening to music, reading, praying, freshening him up, shaving, and reminiscing. Many names are mentioned and although he doesn't remember and respond, it's therapy for me. My memories are numberless! HE has done exceedingly, abundantly, above all I could ever ask or think!!


The Nursing Home submitted Billy's name in a contest to the Tennessee Health Care Association and he was presented a Lifetime Achievement Award as a member of the 2014 Who's Who in Tennessee long term care. Billy didn't understand but I was happy and honored to receive this award on his behalf.


Many of you are letting me know you are enjoying Billy's CDs and that is music to my ears... THANK YOU!


BJ is staying busy with the Dartts and at the same time enforcing my Doctor's orders in regards to taking breaks. I'm not sure if I didn't realize how run down I was, or I knew and didn't want to admit it! (Anyone else out there like me??)


The Dartts would appreciate your prayers as Tracy needs therapy for 4 weeks so this means he and Sharon are off the road, and Stoney & BJ are a Duet again. This news was disappointing, BUT, we are thankful treatment is therapy and not surgery! Pray each of them will be encouraged during this difficult time, their needs met, and most of all, God will use this for HIS glory.


PLEASE keep praying for our family as I continue to be challenged in my "non comfort" zones to TRUST, LEAN, and RELY on The Lord, AT ALL TIMES! I was led to Psalm 62:8 this morning. "Trust in Him at all times, ye people, pour out your heart before Him: God is a refuge for us".


Under His Wings
Paula

God's Comfort

Monday, April 14, 2014
Psalm 94:19 "In the multitude of my thoughts within me thy comforts delight my soul."

This is not the first time I have shared this verse and as long as I am able to write these updates, it won't be my last because this special scripture continues to minister to me.
Paula's Version....In the abundance of my anxieties, HE continues to comfort, console, and brings me cheer!

I will repeat myself again...THANK YOU for holding our family up in prayer! We cannot travel this road alone. Your prayers are being answered....In my last update, I asked you to pray for BJ as he left on tour but reluctantly...(God gave him peace of mind and he sensed the power of prayer on his behalf....for The Lord to send people to encourage him (God brought some very special people into his life...(God's timing is perfect!)...for The Lord to bless their Ministry..(many souls have been saved!) TO GOD BE THE GLORY and THANK YOU AGAIN FOR PRAYING!!!  PLEASE DO NOT STOP!!

Billy has been more awake but becomes very agitated at times...his pressure sore that was starting to heal has reopened...he has a lucid moment once in awhile but doesn't last. Please pray Billy will be comforted in his own little world.

Folks, I realize this IS NOT about me but I have become rundown and the Doctor has informed me that I NEED to take breaks if I want to keep going. For some reason this seems to be a struggle so I would appreciate your prayers.

The past couple weeks have been quite stressful and God once again in His perfect timing brought Wendell & Joan Calder my way. After they called to tell me they were headed in my direction, I hung up the phone and cried tears of joy! God knew I would need THEM (no one else) but them on the day they arrived. God orchestrated their visit at the perfect time. In my moments of anxieties, God brought the two SPECIAL people I needed....folks, that's EXCITING! God has the supply long before we have a need! Billy and I had the privilege ministering with them many years and our memories are more then we can count! I am blessed to have them as family!! (I'm mad at myself for not taking a picture...

As we approach Easter, I have thought of our concert Billy & I would sing at this particular time so I have been listening to our "He's Alive" recording...all songs pertaining to the Cross. In the midst of all my thoughts, I rejoice in the victory that is available because of what Christ did for us at Calvary. I trust you know Him as Savior!!

I would like to invite you to download Billy's "He's Alive" CD and know you will be blessed. Yes I am his #1 fan but I have every reason!!!!

Whatever thoughts and anxious moments you may encounter, HIS comfort can delight your soul because, HE'S ALIVE! You ask me how I know.,,He lives within my heart!!

Billy always signed his name with BECAUSE HE LIVES...we can rejoice in the Resurrection EVERYDAY!!!
BECAUSE HE LIVES (I can face tomorrow!!)
Paula

Please Continue to Pray

Thursday, March 13, 2014
To My Faithful Friends and Prayer Warriors:

The Apostle Paul said it well... "I thank my God upon every remembrance of you"...and I feel the same!!!

Your cards, emails, and phone calls have ministered and encouraged me in a very difficult season of my life. Thank you for taking the time to reach out and show your concern. BJ has shared with me your comments from FB and we both are overwhelmed at the response. We were blessed with a visit from Brian & Patti Albrecht, the President of Global Outreach Mission and had a great time reminiscing our wonderful times together through the years. Our special friends, Don & Connie Campbell spent a few days with me and spoiled me rotten...guess they had to if they wanted to eat...I hate to cook. Haha! I am certainly privileged to belong to the Family of God!!

The past three weeks have been very emotional starting with Hospice telling me they were seeing more signs of Billy's decline and it wouldn't be long. At the time BJ and Stoney were on tour in Florida while Tracy and Sharon were home because Tracy was recovering from surgery. My prayer and desire was for the guys to complete their tour before having to come home and I am happy to tell you God allowed that to happen! Many of you were praying and we THANK YOU!!!

They arrived in town in an ice storm but went directly to see Billy and he recognized BJ and said his name! He had a good talk with his dad and felt he understood what he was saying. This is a miracle because Billy hasn't been communicating like this. I went the next day and I had a few good moments with him so we KNEW God gave us something special, because this hasn't happened like this again. I want every day to be a good day but Hospice warns me not to get my hopes up because it won't get better... At least this side of eternity. Then we will experience the FINAL change...WE SHALL BE LIKE HIM!!!! WHAT A DAY THAT WILL BE!!!

Here is my URGENT request.... Prayer for BJ...we've talked and he has my blessing to leave on their next tour. He has mixed emotions but his dad would want him to go and Billy would tell him if he could. When Billy's mom was in her final days, she knew he was struggling so she told him to go and do what God called him to do and so we did... that was the last time we saw her. She also knew financially that was the way we made our living and it's the same with BJ. I know he is ministering but that is his source of income so it's alright. However, BJ leaves with lots of unknowns (for one..will he be close to an airport and how soon can he get home when he gets the call,etc) so this mom is asking you to hold him up in prayer....for God to give him a very special kind of grace, and a peace that passes all understanding to enable him to minister and encourage many hurting people he will encounter in the days ahead.

Also...your prayers for Billy that God will give him a Psalm 23:4 home going.

As for me...I will receive and appreciate ALL the prayers you offer because I need them and I THANK YOU in advance!

Allow me to finish the way I started: I THANK MY GOD UPON EVERY REMEMBRANCE OF YOU (Phil 1:3)

Under His Wings
Paula

In God's Timing

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Paula Speer

I always wonder how to start these Blogs because time seems to pass so quickly. Thanksgiving and Christmas ran together and now we are in 2014!!

There is NO way I can express my gratitude for holding our family up in prayer this past year. There were days I didn't know how to pray...it would have been very easy to pray selfishly but my ways are not HIS ways. I asked The Lord many times to lay us upon your hearts and take us to the throne of Grace and many of you did that...I want you to know you got us through some very difficult days. Your prayers,cards,emails, and love gifts encouraged and sustained us.....THANK YOU!!!!

The Journey continues and it's getting harder. Billy has taken another major decline since Christmas and even in the past few days. At times I get so overwhelmed with all the unknowns, but, my OBSTACLES are Gods OPPORTUNITIES for Him to prove Himself one more time.

God showed His Faithfulness to us again last night when Lynda Randle called BJ to tell him she was driving through Nashville and wanted to visit his dad. We all were with Billy (he slept through our visit) when the nurse came to share with me some new info on him which was discouraging and heart breaking. Lynda leaned close to Billy and started singing, "God On The Mountain"and nobody sings it like Lynda !! He didn't say anything but opened his eyes a little and I just have to believe she ministered to him in a very special way. My tears flowed as Lynda prayed because once again God reminded me that He has the supply long before we have a need....He knew BJ and I would need encouragement and He sent Lynda at the PERFECT time!!!

We are not saying Billy is in his final days or hours ... Only God knows that...but he has taken a decline which is a part of the disease and we still need your prayers as we see all the changes. It was recommended we start Hospice Care which will benefit Billy and provide support for BJ and myself so we appreciate your prayers for this as well.


Thank you again and again!!!
Under His Wings
Paula

Thanksgiving

Saturday, November 30, 2013

Paula Speer

Psalms 107:1 O give thanks unto the LORD, for he is good: for his mercy endureth forever. 

Greetings Faithful Friends and Prayer Warriors,

It is hard for me to believe seven months have passed since our last letter so for those of you who have not read my Blogs or kept up with BJ on FaceBook, I would like to bring you up to date. 

At the time of my last letter in April, Billy was waiting on an appointment to see the Neurologist for an updated assessment which in June, led to another Specialist that diagnosed him with Lewy Body Dementia. Many of our questions were answered that day as we learned the aggressiveness of this terrible, fast moving disease. BJ and I were informed the importance of looking into Long Term Care to assist Billy and his needs. If any of you have had to make this decision, you are well aware how difficult it was for BJ and myself. At first, my intentions was to admit Billy for thirty days so I could catch up on some much needed rest, and then I would bring Billy back home. It was at this time that his dementia advanced to another stage and caused strong behavior issues, which made me realize my desire to bring him home wasn't going to happen. 

He was then hospitalized for twelve days to find the right medication that would keep him manageable so he would not harm others as well as himself. Oftentimes, the side affects to the medications are worse then the disease itself, but we had NO options. 

Billy has lost his appetite but eats with my feeding him.....shuffles with the help of his walker....talks very little and makes no sense. I just can't believe his decline in the past four months! 

This journey becomes more difficult every day as I can't begin to tell you the painful stages we continue to encounter, so we NEED your prayers as we try to rest in the Sovereignty of God knowing HE MAKES NO MISTAKES. 

We THANK YOU for your love gifts as we continue to trust The Lord for our daily provision, and again, we APPRECIATE YOUR PRAYERS!!! Believe me when I tell you that we certainly NEED You!!

If you at any time would like to make a donation, please make check payable to
Billy Speer Ministries 
313 Brandywine Lane
Springfield, TN
37172

I would like to invite you to purchase a copy of BJ's new book entitled, DUSTY ROAD, as he shares with you his perspective on this journey into faith. (Christmas is just around the corner)

On behalf of our family, we are reminded to GIVE THANKS IN ALL THINGS....we reside in a fallen world, where blessings and sorrows intermingle freely, BUT, thankfulness  takes the sting out of adversity....we give Him thanks regardless of our feelings, and He gives us joy regardless of our circumstances. God is our refuge and strength, an ever- present and well-proved help in trouble. 

Happy Thanksgiving
Billy, Paula and BJ

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To God Be The Glory

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Paula SpeerTO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!

Many of you have prayed I would take a little break and be refreshed...your prayer was answered!! Someone covered my expenses to fly to Maine to attend the Fall Foliage Weekend at Living Waters Bible Conference....WHAT A GIFT and I truly am grateful!!!! This is a place where our family has ministered for 37 years so it's special!! It was great seeing familiar faces we have known for many years and also meet new folks who started praying for us after learning about Billy's health. The Dartts provided the music and Tracy was the Guest Speaker which meant BJ & I got to spend some time together. We also had a friend from Washington join us for the weekend and it was her first time at Living Waters. The weather was perfect the entire trip and I sure enjoyed the beautiful Fall colors....my favorite time of year!! I truly was refreshed but it was an emotional time without Billy. I almost didn't go since he had been taken to the ER a week before but all reports were clear so he was returned to Christian Care. They told me that Billy wouldn't know I was gone (which I found to be true upon my return) and they would call me if necessary. I just can't put into words what this time meant to me. After the conference, I spent two days with my brother and his wife who cooked me fish, scallops, and a lobster roll...,YES, I was spoiled....and I loved it!!! Ha!

I felt very blessed to have been able to take this trip and it was perfect timing.... I needed it.,,but I was ready and happy to get back to see Billy...even though he didn't know I had been gone. These visits now are more for me and I really need your prayers. I long to have Billy communicate and reminisce with me but he isn't able, so my heart continues to break. However, The Lord reminds me of a commitment both Billy & I made....."ALL I AM, ALL I HAVE, ALL I EVER HOPE TO BE...I now and forever dedicate to the LORD JESUS CHRIST for His use and glory, absolutely, unconditionally, now and forever....NOW LORD JESUS, HOLD ME TO IT."

Under His Wings
Paula

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Two Years

Friday, June 12, 2015

May Update

Sunday, May 10, 2015

Paula's Christmas Update

Friday, December 12, 2014

September 2014

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Lifetime Achievement

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

God's Comfort

Monday, April 14, 2014

 

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